to continue my text from earlier:
went to the caravan, laura & rob were already there. lisa came about 20 minutes later. was quite a fun night. we were just hangin out, smoking some splifs & fags and just talked. rob's problems are still a big problem like with money, his violence, his big big big big problem with alcohol, his much much much much bigger drug problem, his work, his family, his attitude, his boss and millions and billions of other things. just couldn't tell him that i want to end our "thing" when he was in such a depressive mood. but all in one it was quite cool. most of the time it was pure entertainment which you couldn't have better anywhere else.
after lisa went home, laura walked up with us to the towncentre and rob walked me home like he always does.
the weather is crap - it's so windy that you're nearly blown away. i'm dying for a fag but i can't even go in the garden without being scared that a tree could come down or something.
philine - i fuckin miss you. think about you every day since i'm back here and just can't imagine to never see you again. we had such a fun time - i have so many things to tell you about. just miss it to skip lessons with you and just sittin in the gras in front of the co-op and drink this energy drink in the brown can. even miss that you're complaining about that i'm smoking too much or that i have to come down or that i'm drunk so often or that makin out with to many people or that i'm always too late or that i'm so mean and rude or that you hate my shoes or that i'm always forgetting my stuff or just draw any strange pictures of you - i even miss that you're mixing my developer in photography or that you tell me that i'm overbearing or that i ask you silly questions just to annoy you that we're just hangin out in you're room and that i ask you who's talkin about me and lisa behind our backs or to slag of somebody and you're just listening. i miss you so bad.
nice sentence: a photo i took of a picture someone else took of Philine which i found in the dark room today.